this is not only a staff/client thing.

but i only just now put 2+2 together.

anyway, just a little while ago i was talking to my mother about a survival mechanism i have at work for being charming to people who pretty surely won’t understand me but i need them not to get mad at me when i screw up something, which i inevitably will, because i am, as my previous boss said, “paperwork-challenged”.

i guess i got into this in college trying to live in a dorm while being severely strange. it’s like i can give off this vibe of “i know i am weird and i was confused but aren’t i cute and nice enough for you to not be mad at me?” and the scary thing is that it usually works.

in another post you talked about the I AM NICE vibe. i almost wish i couldn’t do this vibe because then when i try to tell people “in real life i am not as nice as i am at work” they think i am being modest or low-self-esteem, but really isn’t it more realistic that i can know that i am a bitch sometimes? and that i use up all my small amount of patience on the people i don’t live with.

but people don’t like to admit to believing something like that, or i donno what is going on in their minds really…